James lost sense of himself after a long battle with depression. He couldn’t seem to pick up the pieces after multiple failed relationships in succession. The people he dated were dark, sometimes even malicious. He attracted a lot of narcissists because he was gifted; people often gravitate toward those who are empathetic or gifted in some way.
Why though? he always asked himself.
He checked out of his normal life after a stint in the “big house.” How did he get into that situation, you might ask yourself?
Before I answer that question, let’s get to know James better.
You see, James is the type of man who is giving—that’s not his issue. His issue is that he gives to the point of self-sacrifice. He had no real perception of boundaries at all. This is what attracted those types of people to him more than anything.
This sadly set James up for a long life of hardship in every relationship he would ever enter until he broke that karmic cycle. James had to learn not only how to set boundaries, but also what proper boundaries are, and with whom they should be enforced.
Now this is where life got tricky, because there was no one around James who would teach him how to live independently. Everyone around him was accustomed to using him for his gifts, while simultaneously manipulating him into believing he wasn’t gifted at all—but rather a burden to everyone around him.
Now that we have a little more backstory on James, let’s dive into the “big house” stint.
James had one friend for most of his life who always showed up for him. Even when his own family didn’t, this friend would. James had a great deal of respect for him and would have done anything in return. And yes—for James, that meant even going to jail, because he was loyal.
But even that loyalty was eventually weaponized against him. The friendship ultimately collapsed when the friend revealed his true colors. That ending was bitter, but in hindsight it was likely necessary for both of them.
During this stint, James found himself in 23-hour-a-day lockdown due to repeated involvement in fights. He accepted that fate and began reading intensely over the next 1,351 days of solitude.
After he was released and returned to his family home, he struggled to reassemble the fragments of his life and fell into depression once again. Those around him took full advantage of this and began using psychological manipulation on James—confusing him and gradually reshaping him into someone easier to control.
There were many individuals involved, including people allegedly paid to participate in the dynamic. This became, in James’s experience, a real-life Truman Show scenario—his entire community appearing to participate in a narrative he was not fully aware of.
During this time, James was living vicariously through others online just to find some sense of joy. This is where he began attracting the wrong attention, and thus became the catalyst for this chapter of his life.
He attracted covens, gangs, blue-collar criminals—various organized and dangerous groups while spending much of his life online. And they were not attempting to be his friend.
Some of them, in his experience, were actively attempting to assassinate him. He believed they had coordinated networks embedded in multiple systems and institutions.
He believed individuals within positions such as judges, police, and military personnel were involved in different capacities. He also believed scientists and chemists were using professional influence to manipulate medical records and prescriptions, postal workers were tampering with mail, and multiple infrastructure systems surrounding him were being interfered with.
He believed individuals in grocery stores were observing and potentially tampering with his food, that pharmacies and dispensaries were compromised, and that financial and legal systems were being influenced in ways designed to undermine him.
In his understanding at the time, he also believed life insurance policies were being taken out on him and others, with the intention of profiting from harm or destabilization—whether through psychological collapse, engineered crises, or induced self-destruction.
These groups, in his view, targeted individuals with gifts, as well as vulnerable women with children—some for exploitation, others for financial gain.
It nearly cost James his life getting entangled in all of this, and he barely managed to break free after multiple perceived attacks on his safety and stability.
James has learned a great deal during his time in solitude and has begun rebuilding his life. He is now focused on helping others who have developed toxic patterns similar to his own, striving to promote awareness around manipulation and coercive control.